Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Say Goodbye to Russet Shadows

He decided he wanted to move on down the road and not co-blog. "Our posts didn't overlap, you own the blog, blah blah blah" So if you follow this blog because he posts here, you'll have to find him elsewhere.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Diary of a MDW - 9/10/10

Dear Diary,

Its been almost a month since I decided to write about my journey. Russet thinks I wasn't mad or angsty enough in my original post. I suppose it was rather benign; however, I have been angry about being diabetic for a long time. Fear, annoyance, anger, depression...I've felt it all since the diagnosis. For the last couple of years though, it's been anger and deep, dark depression, oppressive misery. If it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all. Gloom. Despair. And agony on me. Whoa, a HeeHaw flashback.

What Russet doesn't realize is that I have been horribly angry. I've been shooting the finger at diabetes, but not doing a darn thing about it. I've been living my life without a care while knowing that I have been shortening my life span by about 20 years if not more. I mask the anger well.

But something changed on 8/18. That day was the beginning of a new day and an answer to years of prayer. It was as though a switch had been flipped. With strength from Him, I started an eating plan to combat the trauma I have been inflicting on myself.

I cannot convey how incredible I feel. Everything has changed. I reminded myself that my body is a temple, forged by our Creator to be used for His Glory. I am also looking at life with fresh eyes. I may not be where I want to be in life, but I have to believe this is where God wants me to be. He is giving me the answers I need. More than that, I know He is guiding my every step right now. How do I know? Well, I have been on track for 4 weeks with my eating. I am seeing amazing results. Blood sugar readings are getting normal, my energy is up, depression is gone. It's a new me.

Funny, I'm upset that my new low fasting readings, which are half of what they had been are annoying me. I want to do better. I want to fulfill my purpose in this life. Sitting around and eating myself to death isn't the answer. I'm filling my body with healthy foods. Fruits, vegetables, whole grains, organic milk, grass fed beef, pastured chickens. Foods the way God intended them to be. In this 4 week period, I have eating prepared foods (restaurant) 3 times. 3 TIMES! Before, I could eat prepared foods 3 times in one day.

You know, it's good to be alive and a child of God.

Diary, I'll be back in another month.